I totally need therapy!!!!!

I have some good adoption and [our] family life updates/posts coming up, however, this is another "out there" posts from me.

I don't know why, maybe it's due to resorting to creativity and fantasy world living because I was an only child growing up and that was how I spent my days playing in my room or maybe it's just because I'm crazy but I really get into my 'dramas'.  If I'm reading a book series, I become the characters or I get so involved it's like they are family to me.  Yes I know, I'm looking up psychologists in the yellow pages as we speak. 

When I was growing up, I fell into the world of "little house on the prairie"....I figuratively fell into the TV box and was part of the family.  I made up my own character, when I wasn't watching the show my mind thought up scenes in my head where I spent afternoons in, just living the life I saw in that show.  In my room, I played in my fantasy world of 'little house on the prairie' and I saved people, I was hurt, I was found, you name it, I acted it out or at least thought about how I would write myself in and I pretended I was a part of that family to the exclusion of my own.  (I did say I needed therapy right?!)

I did this with reruns of the old Batman and Robin series (you know, Adam West and Burt Ward who happens to be neighbors with my co-worker....freaky).  I was catwoman.  I fell in love with batman, I did the moves (of course it was easy with the um balloon words "pow" "shazaam" going on), I still am catwoman sometimes, she's just awesome!

In college it was 'The X-files'.  Oh my word.  I was Dana Katherine Scully, I was in love with Agent Mulder, I dreamt about them though I shouldn't get into detail as minors may read this (although the more recent news of him checking into rehab for sex addiction kind of killed it), I wanted to kill Tea Leoni for marrying David Duchovny, my friend and I devised a plan for how to get David Duchovny to fall in love with me and leave his wife (did I mention I needed therapy?) and oh let's not forget college where my friend and I (and her brother) filmed an "x-file " episode and I was Agent Scully.  I even cut my hair like her and yes friends as bad as it is to admit it, I constructed an entire scrapbook devoted to the "x-files"....it sits in my album/scrapbook rack.  Oh yes and because in the very first episode, the pilot episode Agent Mulder painted X's on the road where "strange" occurrences happened, my friend and I bought red spray paint and went out around town to spray paint X's on the road too.  That was the night we got chased by the police I think and we ran, but to be honest I didn't know it was the police that was after us...thank goodness he bought that story...I so thought we were going to be arrested!

I was into "without a trace" "cold case" and I am Brenda Leigh Johnson of the LAPD from "the closer", let's face it her hubby on the show "Fritzy" is one fine looking specimen of the male gender. 

However, now I'm agonizing with "Fringe".  I just saw the last new episode from a couple of weeks back on the dvr tonight and while for the most part I'm not a shipper fan....last time was x-files, this season is killing me with Peter and Olivia.  I just want them together already....without distractions of the alternate Olivia who now has totally built a wedge in Peter and Olivia's budding feelings for each other....oh and the way it ended just made me sad.  This my friends is agony in the fantasy world.  I don't know if this is a good thing or not, but I've suffered through this since childhood and while I know these are TV shows that end eventually, I really get caught up in the storyline and build my own with it...how weird is that?  The most heartbreaking ending to a 'drama' episode...see it here!

One good thing that has come from this is that I can write creative blips here and there.  Not so much for blogging per say, but for things that need wit, such as church items  like "reader's theatre".  I've written them for church and for family Christmas gatherings (cousin's readers theatre is usually present), and I love it.  It's fun to delve into fantasy land and come up with lines of a story sometimes.  But one should come back and not be so into the fantasy life that it takes over one's whole world!